Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Sunday, May 11, 2014
10.05.2013... a warm and damp day, everything still, and quiet and calm and in the afternoon you slipped away from me.
My first thought was "NOT YET" but then immediately thought: "Finally" because I knew you were ready and had waited long enough.
The next morning spring came... tiny leaves on all the trees and a balmy sunshine... death and birth, all in less than 24 hours.
It's Mother's Day and you are with me every day, all the time. I miss you.
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Thursday, May 8, 2014
May 8th last year... the worst day of the eleven in hospital... the day that my mother was not herself anymore, the day that the morphine (or the pain) made her take just that one step further...
It was the only evening I was home at 10 o'clock in the evening, and didn't stay until almost midnight.
It was the day I lost my mother.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
One year ago today Kotisairaala ordered an ambulance to take my mother to hospital. I had never been an ambulance before, and I was neither brave nor strong... but she was. She never once looked back and held my hand and smiled and said everything would be fine and we both knew that she would never come back to her lovely home again.